I was quite occupied this week with the matters of getting recommendation letters from people at IJN and an advising session at MACEE when Fatimah messaged me about the Star Education Fair. She was asking me whether I'm going.

My first thought was, " Education fair? Hmm, I don't think there's a need for me to go to an education fair for the moment".
And because I was quite occupied, I forgot about this matter. Until Fatimah sent me another message asking whether I'm going and I answered her, "Your Dad gave you permission already?" which she answered yes and guess what?

I forgot about this matter AGAIN. Yes, again. Until she sent me another message asking whether I'm going and this time it hit it in the face that I immediately apologized to her and saying yes, I will go.

I mean what was wrong with me? Here was a girl trying to ask me to accompany her for the day and I made her ask me 3 times about it. 3 times. I'm not sure with the rest of you but I certainly do not like to treat my friend like that. Especially when that friend is a girl.

So the next day, I went to the fair together with Fatimah, her sister, Aisyah and my long-time-no-see friend, Arif.

Talking about the fair, it's sort of like a tradition for my college and the other law college to compete everytime there's an education fair and when I say compete, I mean head-on. Its like if my college opens up 14 booths for the fair, they would also open up 14 booths.

I bumped into one of my classmate on my way to the fair that morning. Apparently she was also part of the volunteers who helped to manage the booths of my college during the fair. Paid volunteers that is. Of course, I didn't sign up for it as I was already busy this week. Saw a lot of my classmates at our college booths, volunteering. Glad I didn't bumped into Mr. Aria or he'd ask me to help at the booths also.


I realized something after that. That, after hanging out with them, I felt something.
I felt happy. I was wondering about it at first when I told my mum about it and finally I understood why.
It has been ages since I last hang out with my friends. Technically speaking, compared to others, it's like I have never hang out with my friends. Of course I do hang out with my friends before but now that I think about it, it was only one or two times. It shook me a bit when I realized that. It seems like I don't have friends.

Ok, before you jump into conclusion, let me clarify that I do have friends. Maybe I've stuck on my the things I do in my life so much that I forgot about these things.

But it doesn't matter much to me anyway.
At least for now.
What about in the future?
Would I reflect back on my teenage years and ask myself, "What were the things that I did together with my friends?".

I think I should do this more often.

Till then.

It still is a bit unbelievable the moment I'm writing this. You see, I was having a bar of chocolate at 5 in the morning the other day and suddenly there was some kind of feeling at the intersection between my upper teeth and my jaw. I don't know how to describe the feeling but it's something that is somewhat usual to me when I'm eating something and it usually go away in just minutes. It still didn't go away by the time I went out shopping in Jalan Masjid India with the rest of the family and it got worse when I had my lunch. It was swelling and getting bigger when I chew something. My first thought of it was that it could be an infection in my jaw and all the way to the back of my right ear (yes, that big).

"Oh boy, not IJN again. I just got out from IJN a month ago from the quarantine", I thought to myself. But this swelling has to be checked and the next thing I knew, I was waiting alone (they all had to go back because Faira Sofea was getting cranky) for 4 hours just to have myself checked and the result turned out the doctors didn't know what could be the problem for my jaw pain. I wasn't having fever and I'm feeling super fine and I just got back from kilometers of walking.
(You know how shopping at Jalan Masjid India can be). So, that was one symptom down. On the phone, Dato' Chew however suggested me to go and see a dentist. "Yeah, it has been almost 4 years since I last saw a dentist and got my teeth checked", I thought again. I got back home with the pain still in my jaw.

Yesterday morning, mom and me went to see a dentist to get it checked. It turned out that my wisdom tooth on my right jaw was the one causing this miserable pain. Before that, for your information, this wisdom tooth of mine has been there for almost a year already if not more and it has not been causing me any problem. Usually when a wisdom tooth wants to grow out it would cause an intense pain and usually has to be extracted out and sometimes people have to resort to surgery because of its complications, like my dad. Well for my case, I didn't really realize it because probably the pain from the wisdom tooth had been combined with the pain of my then swelling gum. Again, for your information, swelling of the gum is one of the side-effects from taking the anti-rejection drug.

So my wisdom tooth came out and didn't cause me any pain for quite a long time and hence was leading me having a thought that I would not have to extract my wisdom tooth unlike any other normal people with this wisdom tooth problem. I was wrong and it did cause me problem and my wisdom tooth had to be extracted that day. It was such an uncomfortable experience having the extraction of a tooth. I was even comparing it with the pain from my biopsy to see which one is the most painful and uncomfortable. So, that pretty much explains why its still a bit unbelievable to me having my wisdom tooth extracted.

I went through an intense high fever when I got home due to the pain from the extraction. Now this is what I'm afraid of all. The fact that my body can't really tolerate high pain even though I've been through God knows how many pain before this makes my body weak and me having fever.

I can't really eat and Raya Aidil-adha is coming near. Guess I won't be enjoying those lemangs and rendangs maybe.

It's just a couple minutes more till I finally turned 19. Oh wait it's already 26th of November 2009.

Haha. Happy 19th Birthday Fikri.

Its day 2 in quarantine peeps. So far everything's going just great, almost. Alhamdulillah to that. My fever never went back up again since admitted. The blood and urine test are back and both are clear just that there's some infection detected with the blood test with a bit of high grade. Not sure if I mistakenly heard that from the other doctor. Got to check it out with Dato' Chew later.

My activity here in this large quarantine room is quite monotonous since day 1. Planning on revising for exam or I'm finished with boredom in this room. Met with Dr. Ezani yesterday and he said, "Enjoy this prison..". What kind of word is that? I jokingly answered, " I'll get out from this room, you'll just see" and he answered back " Nurse, lock the door after this". Great, add some more weight on the already troubled head of mine..

The worse part of all they didn't even take the time to explain to me that I'm actually in a quarantine. I heard a baby crying the first night here and I went out to check it out just to find a nurse telling that I'm not supposed to come out from the room because I'm in quarantine. Now why didn't they tell me this one important thing earlier?

That's all for day 2 in quarantine guys. See ya.